This post is past overdue.
Mainly, because I don't really have the words to adequately express what I feel in my heart and soul. If you know me well, you know that I'm not very flowery with my vocabulary. I just say what I need to say in short sentences and try to get my point across with the least amount of words as possible. I'm very fortunate I have my pictures to go along with my stories sometimes; because for me a picture speaks a whole heck of a lot more than I do (unless we're one-on-one, then I speak too much).
Anyway.
I write for my children; to help them learn about what I see in them, to give them a glimpse into our journey, to help them get to know me better, to make them see how cool I really am and to remember the good times. For these reasons I'll share a little about my childhood.
My mom doesn't like to talk about anything that makes her feel uncomfortable or makes her the bad guy. I don't believe that there should be anything that should make you feel these things. It makes me sad to know that there are parts of her that I will never know. I don't want the same for my own kids.
I can't be completely brutally honest in this good 'ol blog because I feel like I want to keep this blog positive, but sometimes you'll see my other side emerge, like now ... but pstttt, I have a journal kids (that you are more than welcome to read when you are in your 20's ... haha).
Sooooo
I grew up in Los Angeles.
I grew up poor (what I call States poor, because we had shelter, food, clothes and love).
I grew up in a single-parent household.
My mother was strong and she did what she could to teach us right.
In my first home, we had roaches and mice.
It was dangerous.
It was scary at night.
Regardless, I had fun because I was a child.
BUT
I also
had dreams.
I would day-dream that I would one day drive a car (my mom didn't drive so we took the bus everywhere).
I dreamt of one day owning a home with stairs because I saw that the rich kids on TV all had stairs in their homes (and now I have one).
I knew I would get an education.
I knew that I had to be strong to end the cycle.
I knew that I couldn't give up.
I knew my mom would help me get there.
AND
It was all up to me.
It's all about the choices we make.
I made a lot of wrong choices, but I learned to make the right ones. So, yes, I give myself some credit too.
This is where I grew up from teeny-tiny to the end of 5th grade. I will never forget the castle! I would imagine that I was someone really, really important that was fortunate to live in a castle and I was very proud of that fact, even if it was all in my tiny imagination. Our apartment was the one in the upper right hand corner. My best friend growing up lived below me. Her father would grab his broom and bang up stairs whenever we got too loud. What I learned from my BFFs father was that smoking was really bad for the body because he had to have an oxygen tank. I loved having that big window out in the front. My brother and I would play on that tiny metal balcony in front of our window ... oh, and I loved having that bigger balcony to our right (your left). We had lots of fun there for sure.
Our apartment was a studio apartment. It had a closet large enough to fit a twin bed. I remember sleeping on the floor a lot. I remember having lots of people with us all of the time too ... my mother liked to help people that came from another country until they could get ready to be on their own. So our home was always busy, but very fun. Our "studio" apartment, had a kitchen that was big enough to fit a small table to fit 2 chairs (from what I remember) then we had 1 bathroom and the living area that was almost always also the bedroom.
Good times!

The stairs.
I remember getting spanked because I didn't want to go up.

Hallway to our apartment. When we had the big earthquake in the early 90's I was stuck in this hallway. The building was moving so much that I couldn't walk.

My mom standing out side of our apartment. Right across from us lived my "mamita" ... my other mom ... she took care of us when we were little. I still remember the music she listened too and the bus rides we would take to downtown where she would buy us something from the store, the food she cooked and would make us finish ... but most of all I remember how much she loved us. But, I also remember when she committed suicide. It still makes me so sad. I miss her.

Our backyard.
One day my brother and I had rock fight with some crazy boys from another neighborhood. I got hit on my forehead and blood was everywhere, I still have the scar to prove it. No more rock fights, EVER!

I was terrified of the laundry room when I was young. From what I remember it was super dark (some of us would hide there when we played hide-n-seek) and the place made some scary sounds. I always thought evil things happened there, so going down the stairs this day brought back those fears ...

but to my surprise ... it was bright and NOT scary at all.
Not anymore that is.

The neighborhood.

Then
We MOVED!
to Glendale!!
I'm so glad.
I'm so proud of my mom for the courage to move to a new place where we didn't know anyone and we were far away from our family ... but that gave us more hope in the future. Glendale was safer for us. Glendale was quiet (back then) and it provided a wonderful High School, unlike the one from Los Angeles.
We shared this 3 bedroom home with 2 other families. It felt like we had moved into a mansion! It even had our own parking spaces. But it didn't last long ... there was one family we were having issues with so we moved to a house around the corner.

And this is the house that I lived in from 7th to when I graduated High School.
Oh MY gosh.
Those purple steps weren't purple when I lived there.
The memories with friends, boy-friends, neighbors. Sneaking out at night to just hang out with friends. Getting in trouble. Girl talks. Hot summer days because we didn't have air-conditioning. Just plain awesome memories here.

Then when I went away to college my mom moved next door to save $ on rent.

And this is the house my kids know to be Abuelita's home. The home Nyomi calls her favorite because it doesn't have any stairs! (full circle moment right there!)
Adam came to this home to visit me back in 2000 ... the day he met my brother and my mom for the first time. The hot summer days we spent here visiting with the kids and the cold winter days ... because this house has HORRIBLE insulation. This is the home my mom had to say good-bye to and BOY WAS SHE SAAAAAAAD to leave her home -- Glendale.
I will also miss driving home and getting off the freeway and right away see my High School.

I had an awesome High School experience. Well, as awesome as I'd like to remember it as, because I remember the positive. I had FUN! Lots and lots of FUN!
I met some of my very best friends here.
I hope that my kids have an awesome High School experience, but I also hope that they can move past it. It's good to remember those experiences with the realization that that was a different time in your life.
Some fun pictures I was able to get of my High School.

This was my hang out spot during my Sophmore and part of Junior year.

Hang out spot during my Senior year.

Other random hangout spots.
The choir room.

The bleachers, to check out the cute football players.

I guess our class donated this bench. Doesn't look old at all, that means I must still be young!! haha!

Time capsule.
When do they open these?

I was a Nitro, a Dynamiter ... what kinda mascot is that you ask? I don't know. lol

Saying hello to my friend Jenny and her family. So glad I have somewhere to stay if I ever need a place to stay during the summer and I wanna be in Glendale! Otherwise, we'll just stay with my brother.

Eating dinner with my cousins and her super smart daughters.

My cousin Rebecca and her husband and daughter ... saying good-bye to my mom.

Closing the door on her home in Glendale.

Saying good-bye to the neighbors, Laura and Stella ... known them since I was 11 years old!!

My mom's good friend who she'd go to Church and to dinner with on Saturdays.

AND
During this weekend, I had a mini-reunion with some locals from my Junior High. It was amazing to see some people I had NOT seen in over 13 years! And some that I had just seen last month :)